dear god i wish i had a tater tot. an empire strikes back lunch box and a school book wrapped in last weeks price chopper bag. a tan members only kit with some oh-so-not-cool tough skins and k-mart shoes to boot. white cleats to wear to that first soccer practice. a paper plate trophy with attached ribbon that bleeds color in the rain and an orange wedge. a green machine t-shirt that lepers letters from the laundry soap.

and the understanding then of what it means to me now.